Me this morning.. bad lighting…can’t see my face well, and I hadn’t put my hair up yet…I think I look awful to be honest, but it’s not about the hair or anything…I just wanted a quick “Before” type photo…. t’s about the fact that I got up, got going and had a good workout.
I don’t want to be someone who goes to the gym. I want to be someone who does what she needs to do to take care of herself because she’s worth it. I won’t always be at the gym - it’s not my most favorite place. But what it is - it’s another tool I can use to be the best me that I can be, even if I don’t lose a single pound. Even if I’m always “heavy” and “curvy”
I used to love to make my body do things. I loved to run when I was little, before I let one bad day and the taunts of my classmates that I was a slow runner and had just lost the race for our class on field day take that joy. When I was getting ready for boot camp, I’d go to the YMCA and swim or take a step aerobics class. I loved that I could do them. I loved boot camp.
Then life and depression and PTSD happened… it’s been rough, but I’m learning to deal with it all in healthy ways…
I want to be that person again, who is active for the joy of it, not because I feel like I HAVE to in order to be thin. FUCK BEING THIN, I just want to MOVE and enjoy what I’m doing. In fact, I rather like some of my curves and don’t want to lose all of them.
SO that’s some of my thoughts on what I’m doing with myself.
Dutch artist Florentijn Hofman (previously featured here) is delighting the world once again with one of his gigantic animal sculptures. This colossal white bunny rabbit, Hofman’s take on the lunar rabbit from Chinese folklore, was just unveiled in Taoyuan, northern Taiwan for the Taoyuan Land Art Festival. The enormous bunny is made of waterproof paper, styrofoam and wood and measures 25.3 meters (83 feet) long. He lounges happily against the side of an old aircraft hanger in the middle of farmland, watching the clouds pass overhead.